Carnegie's Charge

I consider myself a fairly mature individual. I am not easily offended. I trust in Him who I cannot see. I understand the value of work. I lovingly lead my family to the best of my ability. I also, seek to touch the lives of others, seeking nothing in return. And yet, today I find that I have so much room for growth. As I sat feet away from the remains of one of my most influential mentors, and listened to the stories of his impact on every person's life, I realized that I'm only scratching the maturity surface...

In one word, he was 'self-less.' He embodied Christ's command to 'deny oneself.' That's it! I must learn how to not only think less of myself, but in certain situations, to not think of myself at all! I've mastered thinking of myself, looking out for my best interests, protecting myself. In order for me to reach the next level of life, I must learn to 'deny myself.' Denying unlocks the power of true humility and service.

I am confident that this path is the right one, because it completely contradicts our current culture. There is more to life than me...This is Carnegie's Charge!

Baby I'm a Star!

It seems that most people crave the attention of our secular and spiritual celebrities. Yes, we have spiritual celebrities! I'd like to pose a question, "Are humans able to handle the radiance that the spotlight emits?" I've long held the belief that only God can be worshiped. In fact, we discover that we (humans) were created to worship Him (Genesis 1:27; Psalms; Romans 12:1-2; Revelation 4:11). This is no great revelation, but it begs the question, "Why do WE desire to be worshiped?" We simply weren't built to handle that kind of attention, scrutiny, pressure.

There have been too many celebrity "failures" of late to even catalog. My heart bleeds for all of them, because it's almost as if they were set up to fail! A friend once told me the danger of spotlights. Of course, they're designed to keep up with the individual on stage. However, if the spot stays on a person too long, they will begin to burn; lose their vision due to the light; and thus, lose their direction!

So, how do we cherish our stars, both spiritual and secular, without replacing the Son? I believe we must communicate our appreciation for the gifts that God has given them. This will keep us from worshiping the gifted, as opposed to worshiping the Giver of the Gifts! We also need to love-mercy! Not long ago I suffered a public humiliation. The ONLY way I made it through was by the loving, corrective, and merciful hands and hearts of God's people.

Since we made them stars, let's not ridicule them when they "fall." I believe we can all benefit from God's "Star-Power!"

My Shadow...

I noticed my shadow while walking today. I guess I had never looked back before, but on today I glanced to discover it; a replica of me! Wherever I walked, my shadow appeared...Amazing! With this great discovery comes an even greater responsibility. Now, I must be more purposeful in how/where I walk. My shadow is following, watching, mimicking! While this is a lot of pressure, I am truly up for the challenge. Shadows are quite persistent, though. I look forward to this new-found relationship with my shadow...Nicolas!

Political Ramblings - Part 2

The pursuit of true solidarity in America seems impossible. Cursory observations of daily media rhetoric reveal a widening gap between the "Right & Left." Perhaps this is 'as good as it gets.' While a sad commentary on our "civilized nation," it's becoming quite clear that solidarity was NEVER the objective of our democracy. This is cool, too. Our differences should never be dissolved into our melting pot of a nation, and any suggestion to do so would be un-American.

My concern arises when we become so polarized that we can no longer get things done! Yes, if one word characterized our nation, it is "Polarized;" separate, divided, disjunctive. How can we get beyond our disagreements on policy or politics? This is the question…

I believe a key challenge is with the unyielding influence of the media. For years, I've listened in disbelief to conspiracy theorists tort on the divisiveness of the media. Now, I believe. One outspoken commentator was asked if he had anything good to say about The President of the United States, and his round-about response was "NO!" To this I take extreme issue. Our president is criticized for doing too much and much of nothing simultaneously! This is simply impossible! However, to get to a point where nothing positive can be mentioned or reported on, at times by an entire network, is simply unforgivable. Typically, the response is, "What about the networks who only report on the good stuff about our president?" I would suggest that both sides should "check themselves!"

This challenge is seemingly unsolvable, due to both parties/sides feeling to be the best representatives of our nation. Much of what both sides are saying are mere mimics of what they heard someone else say. Very little truth is actually made public. To this end, we must continue to sift through the filibustering, until a still small voice is heard…Who will become the voice of reason?

Facing Forward

As I return to Dallas from Atlanta, I have multiple thoughts vying for my mind's attention. This trip was quite a revelation to me about reliving the past. I have learned that often times, our memories about the past are inaccurate! This is a painful reality for those of us who frequently live in the past. I never thought that I was said individual, however, I must acknowledge that I possess a slight longing to relive certain past experiences. Of course, this is not all bad, but it rests atop a hill with a dangerously slippery slope; living life backwards! WOW, backwards! Even now, I'm unsure of my sincerest objectives or desires for returning to Homecoming: See old friends? Show how God had blessed me with a wonderful family? Reconnect with those who I'd become disconnected? Still unsure...All I know is I just had to attend!

The overall experience of the trip was quite good. I spent quality time with my love and my son, spent time with a dear friend and his family, shared with students from our church, and even saw a few old friends. My wrestling comes when I pose the question, "Was it worth it?" I simply cannot answer that question! When I tally all of the credit card receipts, the time and effort, the shear stress of traveling with an infant, I JUST DON'T KNOW! I believe this is truly the source of my quandry.

So, it boils down to motives and value. It's amazing that I've never really stopped to pose such perplexing questions. I simply lived with zeal. Perhaps turning 40 has opened a new level of investigation and purpose. As I write these thoughts, I kinda like where my inner thoughts are taking me. Yeah, this is good...

I've known for quite some time that writing helps to process thoughts and feelings. This quick session on the plane has truly helped me. In the future, I will definitely check my motives before launching into a trip or pursuit. I had hoped to reconnect with tons of friends from my past, but I've learned that one must maintain some level of communication, or you won't know where to meet to reconnect. As I walked around and around campus, I was searching to make eye-contact with the "Old crew." Never quite made the contact...Then I realized that my "new crew" was with me the entire time; My wife, son, The Smiths, Tierannye and Dirrick! It's amazing how God will allow you to search for the gifts and blessings that He has already dropped into your lap!

My trip to Atlanta was a refresher course on the current blessings of God! I've truly FOUND what I was looking for...Thanks God!

Political Ramblings...Part 1

I have long prided myself on being somewhat of a critical thinker; one who engages arguments and positions with objectivity and fairness. This recent onslaught of political unrest has put me in the greatest quandary. How does one criticize the 'critical' without falling into the trap of sides and positions? As soon as one speaks out against the outspoken, the labels begin to fly; 'liberal,' 'conservative,' 'independent,' 'moderate,' 'racist,' 'sell-out!' For the record (not even sure whose keeping track), I would classify myself as a moderate conservative with a bent towards social justice, founded in Biblical principles, with a view towards real history, personal responsibility, grass-roots mobilization, and unlimited opportunities for all. Whew! (I use these tags/labels because I have to)!

As I watch the 'talking-heads' on television, I am so saddened by the degradation of the human soul. In my honest and humble estimation, no one is getting it right! Hence, we have this cesspool of venomous bloviating that has become normalcy. It is now normal for individuals to disagree with another using logical fallacies laced with systematic subjectivity; to speak in such a way as to intimidate the other, just because it's YOUR show; to use names and labels to tear down one's opponent, thus eliminating the need for them to even speak; and to ignore any/all information that disagrees with your position!

How did we get here? When did entertainers gain so much power? Why do we receive any posting as 'truth,' without maintaining a healthy perspective on all issues? Here's the other side, everyone simply cannot be right! Our arrogance and complete lack of humility are preventing us from sincerely re-examining the evidence, reviewing our motives and most significantly, repenting!

Ok, ok, this is just part 1...

The Circle

This weekend I am performing a wedding for an extra-ordinary young couple in Avon, Colorado. Aside from the breathtaking views, timeless architecture, and genuinely kind people, my heart has been transformed by the influence of this couple's Circle! I have learned from those who love them the imperative of demonstrating love through word and deed. This is what makes our Circles so valuable; to have people who give of themselves to enhance your life-journey. The key is giving!

My circle has given me love, time, wisdom, encouragement, and so much more. How about yours? The Circle has to include those who will speak the truth in love, no matter what! We desperately need that resource in every aspect of our lives.

So, I've been challenged to appreciate my Circle even more, while taking an inventory of those who claim to BE in my Circle!

Take some time today to cherish those who have invested in your life-journey. The Circle....

Graceful Aging...

Today I witnessed a home-going celebration for a 95 year-old sister. Her life was spent investing in the lives of others. She was an educator, community activist, and trail-blazer. However, in our self-centered society, the thought of living for others has lost its cache. In fact, we would question a person's motives who constantly gave of themselves in meaningful ways. Scripture teaches that Jesus lived for the purpose of giving. His method of servant-leadership demonstrated an ability to bring the best out of those to whom he interacted. In essence, He led with love and service. He modeled every lesson that He taught, so that His message would not get lost in the translation of verbal and practical teaching.

As I mature, both numerically and spiritually, I find it necessary to give more of myself to others. I am learning that this is how we age gracefully. The minister said, "You can die one of two ways: 'rust-out' or 'wear-out!'" I choose to 'wear-out!' I must learn to give of myself, not until it hurts, but until it feels good again. I must stop focusing on convenience and start focusing on service. I really don't want my living to be for nothing...

My life counts and will continue to count! So, when my time on this side expires, and they roll me before a waiting congregation, they'll be able to say, "He sure looks good!"

Faith Test...

As I entered the hospital, my mind was racing uncontrollably. I couldn't show my mixed emotions, because I'm Daddy, right? I refused to make significant eye contact with either of my family members, especially my wife. I simply silently sang, "I Need You Now!" Nicolas was clueless about this place (hospital) or his reasons for being there. He just smiled, as usual. With each entrance of nurses, techs, anesthesiologists, ENTs, etc, my prayers were almost audible. Nicolas' weight: 20 lbs, heart rate: 100, temperature: fine. All that was left was the actual surgery.

The nurse came to escort him to the OR. Mom cried. I sighed. We all prayed. Thanks Welborne for stopping by just to pray.

It took no more than 30 minutes, so in the meantime, everyone continued to talk; a prized distraction. We discussed politics, blackness, finances, medicine, church folk, and even MaDea. Then the doctor returned! "Nicolas is resting fine. The procedure was a success. He will be returned in a few minutes"

What a faith test...I had to release my son to the hands of another. But, I was really placing him in the hands of the Master. I acknowledged my utter lack of control - FAITH! I interceded on Nicolas' behalf for a successful surgical procedure, and God answered my request. The doctors, nurses, and others simply were instruments...God was the master surgeon!

Well, Nicolas should hear perfectly fine now. No more ear infections or excessive fluid buildup.

My little man can hear me say, "Nicolas, Daddy loves you!"

Reflections on Recent History....

With the inauguration of our 44th President, my mind has been whirling with thoughts and reflections. I am perpetually awe struck when I consider that the United States of America now has an African-American President. President Obama is a symbol for hope and racial progress. He and his family embody the best that our country has to offer. I am beyond proud! Even further, I am proud of how Americans (in general) are rallying to show their genuine support for this new president. As I watched the festivities, I could see a sea of humanity, all joining together to show solidarity for our new leader.

While I am so excited about our new leader, President Obama, I cannot and will not allow the political process to interfere with my spiritual reality. This government can only do what governments do; rule. My joy, peace, loyalty and love are totally committed to my God! It is my prayer that Christ-followers truly give President Obama a fair chance to do what presidents do; lead. He is not the Savior of the world, nor is he the Anti-Christ! He is a man who has the august responsibility to lead this nation through the muck and mire of financial irresponsibility, unbridled terrorism, and intense skepticism.

I will pray for President Obama, his family, and his Cabinet without ceasing, as the Word instructs....I am confident that we will rise above our current crisis, and when that moment occurs, I will still give God the Glory! He alone is worthy...

Nicolas

For years I have heard about the joy of parenting. Well, nine months ago, I was privileged to join this wonderful society. I am a dad! My son has allowed me to go places that I've never gone before; diapers, vaseline, cribs and play-pens. It has been the most humorous journey. But above all of the terrestrial characteristics of parenting, I am most humbled by the look in his eyes when he awakens, is distressed, or just in need of attention. His look brings me to my knees. I understand, partially, that I am to stay ahead of him, so that I can help him to become all that he was created to be. How frightening!!!

As I watch him playing, rolling, sleeping, and attempting to crawl, I feel a deep sense of love and protection. He is my little man! I must continue to live a life that will make him proud. I must continue to make new mistakes. I must strive to do everything that I can, so that he can learn from my life-lessons. I must be a dad!

I never knew what being a dad would be like...Now I have a clue...

Day 6 - The Art of Breathing

The most critical component to our physical life is breathing. It sustains the quality, even the existence of life. We were created to receive oxygen and to release the end product. However, if one of these processes is compromised, life would cease to exist. I also believe in spiritual breathing - Prayer! Prayer is communicating with the Father, either verbally or non-verbally. The quality of our spiritual lives is contingent upon our commitment to communicating with the Father - spiritual breathing. With the myriad of activities vying for our uninterrupted attention, we run the risk of going hours, days, even weeks without 'telling God all about our troubles...' This is risky behavior! Today I am attempting to commit to praying without ceasing. I will try to breathe spiritually on a regular basis, so that I experience uninterrupted communication with the Father. I can't wait to experience the end results - intimacy, peace, faith, fellowship, direction. Let's breathe together!

Day 5 - Friends

I work with the most lively bunch of people on the planet. It's amazing that all of us have been called into full-time ministry. Today was just one of those awesome days when work spilled over into fun, spilling back into work. Isn't that what life is about at its lowest level - To enjoy doing what God has called you to do? Rare will any person spend eight hours a day working with FRIENDS. This added bonus to my work/ministry environment is truly a blessing. I am learning the true value of friendships and relationships. Both take huge amounts of work, sacrifice, humility, laughter, love, and openness. Where would any of us be without our friends? Well, as '09 gains momentum, I am committing to taking more time to laugh with my friends. The brevity of life compels us to do so.

Day 4 - Standing Still

One of my greatest challenges is patience. At times I feel like life is moving too slowly. Hence, it's my responsibility to nudge things along. How foolish! In fact, the more I help, the more I ultimately hinder. There is no telling where I'd be spiritually, emotionally, physically, or even financially if I would have learned to just stand still. Standing Still is not passivity. It is active faith! One's ability to remove his/her influence from a given situation, and allow God to do what He does best; be God! It boils down to an issue of control. I must believe and live the fact that God is more than capable of handling EVERY issue of my life. It is mine to rest in Him...to stand still.

Day 3 - Lessons from Mr. Bozo

Yesterday I witnessed the funeral of an 84 year old man known as Mr. Bozo...That's what they called him! He was a man of fun and faith, who lived a life of passion and purpose. Isn't that awesome? To get to the end of your journey, and discover that you truly made a difference is living life to the full. I must make a difference with the life I've been privileged to receive. So often I play it safe; LIMITED RISK - LITTLE FAITH - LOWLY AMBITION! How sad... Through his life and death, Mr. Bozo taught me to 'seize the day' - the moment - the time! Person after person testified that Mr. Bozo always left his encounters with a smile. Are people better off from having made contact with me? I must, therefore, love better, listen more, talk nicer, serve greater, and laugh often!

I pray that like Mr. Bozo I'm able to teach with my life, and even more with my death...

Thanks, Mr. Bozo

Day 2

We truly live as if life is certain and death is uncertain. The reality is, death is certain and life is uncertain. I've been free to ponder death, and I'm learning that death is not my enemy. Death is the sure factor that helps me to use my time wisely. You see, if I lived without the end in mind, I would lose the value of urgency. That's it! I must live with a keen sense of urgency, which fuels my purpose. I must rest, read, write, pray, serve, love, and most importantly, LIVE! In a weird sense, death helps me to live! Let's live!

Day 1

Sitting on the sofa with Nicole has never been more fun. Talking. Listening. Learning. Loving. This is living!

Writer's Block...

For years, I have been an aspiring writer. I love to see what others have written, but somehow, I can't seem to consistently communicate my own thoughts via paper or computer. It's really frustrating. Could it be that I'm afraid? Afraid of writing something great? Afraid of writing something stupid? - probably both! At any rate, this is yet another feeble attempt to get back on the writing horse. I'm embarking upon a 30-day Challenge to get refocussed! My vision is blurry! I am trusting that my disconnect from things temporal will reinforce my focus on things spiritual. It's a big risk! But, I believe that's what faith is, or suppose to be! The journey begins...